꩜ We wear the mask that grins and lies, it hides our cheeks and shades our eyes- this debt we pay to human guile; with torn and bleeding hearts we smile. ꩜
🎪 Display Persona:
- she/it/xe xenogender hyperromantic bambi lesbian
- mixed Jewish and Thai
- autism, BPD, derealization disorder
- local clown, quilt maker
🎪 Last Seen Listening To:
A Mask of My Own Face by Lemon Demom
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do u ever really feel like you don’t know who u are anymore? bcuz sometimes I feel like whenever I’m not around anyone I don’t have a personality at all.
like I only got diagnosed with autism recently so part of that is probably subconscious masking but I don’t think that’s all of it. when I’m around my friends I’m acting, when I’m around my boss I’m acting, when I’m in school I’m acting, when I’m around my family I’m acting. and when I’m alone I just don’t feel like anything at all. I don’t know how to stop. I want to be true to myself but I don’t even know who “myself” is. are any of these versions of myself the real me, is there even a real me after all? I don’t even have a consistent persona for when I am faking it. I’m so tired of trying to figure out how to fix this.
Just having an existential crisis on a Saturday night (•́⍜•̀)
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